Anti anxiety.

I have this thing where I always and I mean always think a lot or just maybe over think things. Its not that I'm not happy. I am. Its just like, I cant not think. You know? I hate that. I hate that I sound high. I hate that I cant get it out my system. I hate that I have to do something "productive" just to stop my anxiety. I hate the fact that I take anti anxiety drugs just to have a good sleep. Sometimes I think it may never really go away. I hate that.

I only have my music. That calms me and most of the time helps. I have this, writing. That takes off twenty five percent of the load.  So that probably helps too. I don't know  if I'm the only one who thinks this. This sucks. Me and messy brain. Sorry, I just needed to rant it here. My brain can type! :)) Oh well, the drug is starting to kick in. I must go.


S.