iCry.

Right about 10 hours ago I may be the saddest person on this planet and this may be the saddest blog I'd have to write this month. So bear with me on this, for I am unable to talk because I'll just end up crying. And that shit aint pretty.

You know the feeling when you just start to cry and cry and cry and be sad almost all day and you never seem to wanna stop? Its like every time your mind is idle it lets out a sob. It doesn't care if your in a private or public place it just had to get out. Then you try your best to just stop it and hold it in. It'll feel like swallowing a bolus of emotions and the tension on your throat will just be tighter and tighter.

According to the Mayan calendar, today, December 21st 2012, would be the end of the world. Well, much to their dismay this world certainly did not end but unfortunately, my world definitely did. This may be the most bone crushing moments I'd have to live with. I tried to be okay with it and all but it just really got me. I feel so lost right now. Like a blank canvass was given to me and stares me right in the soul to what would I have to do with my life. Starting all over again when you don't have anything to start over with.

Grief. The sorrow I feel for my dreams from running. Mourning for my slowly fading life plans. What now. What now. I gave up 10% of chunk in my life for this. Still holding on to whats left of my faith. Faith, I don't wanna lose you too. Basically, right now I just wanna be sad, cry and be alone. I just don't know for how long though.







S.